Bye 2009 . Hey whats up 2010. =)

Happy New Year. :)
Yeah, I know it was fast. FAST. I am getting old. T_T. Slowly and steadily Year 2009 is creating space for year 2010 to step in. People are ready to cherish the memories of 2009, learn from their mistakes and make resolutions of not repeating them in the coming year.
I too, will wish everyone happiness and all the best in life. :)
So yeah...Hope you guys will enjoy a brand new year. Enjoy your life to the fullest larh. =D =D =)

You CAN advance. =)

Blaming on other people while didn't realize yourself.
People who take the blame will always get unsatisfied and starts to raise anger.
What is right? What is wrong?
Why do life have to encounter so many misunderstanding among people?
Why can't we be equal?
Why do people have different personalities?
Why do people have feelings and emotion.
When there is hatred, can it bring peace and harmony again?
When there is broken heart nor sadness, can it find its way back home?
When there is happiness will it last long?

or should I just say why do people even have to be born with feelings.
Questions keep buzzing through my mind. . .
I know that this world, there are always light and dark..
The scale will always maintain its balance..
But sometimes, I just hope that the darkness within us will just disappear,
such a hussle to have hatred, it can destroy peoples emotion.
but then again misunderstanding always occurs among us, thus bring forth hatred....damn diao wan lo. hais..~.~

I know that I myself too, sometimes might be very clueless as of what i am doing.

That is why larh..Understanding is important, it act as the basic foundation to achieve peace.
People really have different personality, that is what scares me most.
Sometimes i fear that i will met the wrong people and starts to argue...wrong key to the wrong socket.=-=~ hahahhaa

Well,
So for a new year to start, i have to change myself too..a new self...you can laugh at me if you want but this time i am serious. I myself also got many problem that i hate most. and hope that some day these problem that i owned will just perish right in front of my eyes..
My problem thus far are the following...
-Trying to act smart while i am not.
-Don't dare to face problem. Will always find excuses to cover it up.
-Always get shy around girls. Can't communicate with them well.
-A weakling and a lazy fella who always do things slowly and stupidly...
-Get irritated and pissed off easily.
-Get jealous easily and starts to get emo.
-Afraid of people who have high knowledge than me.
-Sometimes try to act lan ci and trying to be outstanding but abit also not cool.....=__=
-Never think before i act...
-Very confuse in everything, knowing the truth yet tries to escape; knowing it is possible yet dare not try; knowing it is correct yet kept quiet..
-Lastly, act like an idiot who always do things wrongly.


hahaha well i said it..~ pai seh wei..
Thats why sometimes i keep hating myself ..~ =/
and for now.... my goal is to overcome it, to have a change in life. to improve it, to get a good image.

I have to remain calm when i get pissed off.
Can't act violently regardless of what goes wrong. hehehe

Really la...must change d la.. I promised. I sure change wan. I will turn over a new leaf. =)
So... old friends. You heard? The next time you see me. I will be a different person..Hhahaha.. XD

I will take my life more serious ler la.. to make it more meaningful..dont always sit infront computer play play play..tiap tiap hari also like that..like no life at ALL.. =__=...
maybe i will just start drawing as an hobby or perhaps thinking of buying a guitar and learn to play with it by myself when there is free time. =)

That is all la.
Wow.. so late already. 3.20am o.o
Is time for bed...good night. ^^

Vacancy ar.....

Just a few days ago i went to 1u to look for job. Edwin introduce me to work at a gym, place name, "celebrity fitness". When i step into the place, that guy at the reception give me a paper to fill up a form. Then, I was called upstairs for my interview. I was taken to a place where there is a round table and chairs for us to sit. and so i set down confidently, and then the girl started asking question.. . hahaha, no problem at all. i think i went through smoothly, i manage to answer all easily. i smile so brightly, macam like fake smile like that. =.= aiyo who cares la...as long i can make her to have good reputation of me and willing to hire me then i will do anything just to coax her. LOL!!! evil =.=
Girl : "Why are you interested in working ?"
Me: *Hesitate awhile and smile*
Girl: *scribble something on the paper not looking at me*
Me: *wtf...*
Me: "I want to work is because i want to get some good experience outside world. Since this is my 1st time at work. I want to get to know more things. To be able to communicate with people. To have a self-esteem. So that it can help me in the future when i am going to work."
Girl: "umm.."*nod head* "ummm...."*nod head*
Me: "Plus, if i dont work. I will be slacking at home, laze around and doing nothing as it is also a bad habbit for me."
Girl: "OK...so right now you sign here and write the date."
Me: O.O *means can hire me jor?*
Girl: "...and you will still have to wait for the second interview in our main brance in mid valley, so we will call you and let you know when we are ready larh."
Me: *Wtf...2nd intervew?? got such thing?*
Girl: "Thank you. You may go now. call your friend upstairs for interview."
Me: "Ok." *smile* "You can count on me for this job."
Girl: "alright" *nod head and smile*

And so, as you can see this is how I bluff lo, so fake right? ...LOL I work is because of money d lar.....other things who cares d..aiiyo..you got higher pay i ma work for you lo..if not choi lei dou ngong ar..aiya but i will work hard d . dont worry ..hahaha xD
Plus, i apply for a paperwork job...so i guess is fine with me. =)

1U most of the vacancy job only hire girls d.. so lame la.. come on ..why guys cant? i understand if you sell those cosmetic and girls attire la..but video shop want to hire girls only?? whats your problem man....summore i saw a shop that sell bracalet, necklace...only hire chinese girl . Wow..Come on..dont be so selfish la......

Merry Christmas. :)

Jinggle bell..ding ding ding.~ Christmas jor leh.. any plan to celebrate? hehe...
Well as for me, i will be having dinner party at one of my relative place tonight.
gonnna makan turkey. dunno sedap or not leh. forgot the taste d. lol..

So.....
I hereby wish all of you a merry chirstmas and a happy new year. May the essence of christmas remains always with you. and take care. hohohoho :)

SMKTS prom night 2009.

waa..what can i say leh? the best prom? the worst prom? lol..well to me i feel kinda regreted going. feeling quite down and bored. Only the dancing part that was able raise my mood. wow i nvr dance like this..like some crazy people..nvr dance so long in my life. or shud i say i nvr dance before. But during prom i really dance like siao. hahaha...dance man..like u r in a disco hahaha...
well, on the downside, is i actually dont enjoy much.
I feel like is not worth it.
The ballroom was small and the lighting is not good.sometimes i feel like it was kinda dark.
Plus..the voting for prom queen, king and best dress are quite unfair..as i saw a person cheating by voting 5 times or more of the same person. so yeah....this prom i can't say is good nor bad.is just depends on what i saw and my mood.

Last but not least, Congratz to prom king Nicholas Leong, prom queen Celine Chung and best dressed Yujie. U guys are awesome.

PROM rating overall.. 4/10 =)

I have to think more positive.

Arh..~ i have been through alot. Alot man... Looking for a college to pursued my studies, and still have more to think of my life. Not really quite satisfied with my life right now. I still have more to learn. Have to be more mature.
Sometimes i just kinda hate myself for being so stupid and stuff. Keep saying the wrong word at the wrong time. Why do i end up like this. Life is hard when you step into adulthood, now only did I realize. Well, thats me man..sometimes i kinda jealous of you all that are enjoying your wonderful life everyday. smiling to people..laughing at jokes.. well to me is hard, i can hardly get any friends through communicate with them, perhaps i lack of humour in me.
I can't make them laugh...My jokes sucks. because of my language speaking i guess. realy regretting not taking chinese.. :( as i mostly speak chinese to my freinds. I feel so powerless. Everyday, i will always have my mind thinking, why am i born like this. I shud be proud of myself. but i still have this feeling that i will feel so lonely when no ones talk to me.
I want someone to laugh with me. talk to me. share their story with me. Share their joy with me. and most importantly I want to show my good reputation to everyone. To show a good image but sadly right now i am just that kind of person that r so blurr and dont have any good talent at doing things.
So at the moment, I will always have this fear when talking to others people. I scare they will not enjoy talking to me.
Maybe is all because i'm not good enough to be a better person. Everytime i open my mouth I speak rubbish. Being too sacarstic nor too kind also will hurt others feeling. i really dont know how am i suppose to get everyone attention. I feel so minor in a way. feel so ignored...and lonely at the same time. :(
So that is why i have to change. i know that i have to change. I can't stay like this forever.
have to be more brave and responsible when facing problem.

Comic Fiesta. =)

Me with manga artist,Keith.

Stay tuned. More to come......=)

Freedom?

SPM is finally over and I still feel about the same, don't have the hype up feel or excitement that was expected to have it after exam. Maybe partly is because I still miss my school and my friends. We gonna part ways after we graduate. We are slowly stepping forward to a new stage in life.
We are now mature and has become an adult. Have to be more rasional and take care of things yourself, can't depends on parents anymore. Gonna miss those old times. With a blink of an eye, TIME do fly with an extreme speed. Scary.+_+

On the bright side, I actually kinda glad that SPM is over, because before that, is really giving me a hell of stress and headache studying. Besides, i can get to have time to play and go out more often, but i still don't really enjoy much.
Few days ago, my dad won a Nintendo Wii through a lucky draw. I was kinda surprise that he won such an expensive console, talk about being lucky.wow. o.o. Now hope my mom buy toto can strike 1st prize. hahahaha. I myself not really a wii fan but i already kinda addicted to it. =.=!!

School prom night is getting close day by day, and I had already spent all my money on cloths and stuff day by day. Pukima!! =>= pok jor lar now. My budget become negative d. Diao lar. Actually damn true with the "money is everything" quote from Edwin. No money really can't be at ease and instead will live a hard life. Gonna get a job and earn money from working. man..damn lazy to work. because i never work before. I had also went to various places with a bunch of friends to shopping centre, mainly is to buy cloths dress for the upcoming prom. Went to 1u on the 1st day of shopping spree after SPM, and end up buy a vest. Just lepak here and there. Watched Princess and the frog. Nice movie, long time no watch disney classic cartoon ler so that's why I kinda really looking forward to watch.haha but although it was nice i slept in the cinema half-way through the movie. Not because of the movie but the cramp place that the TGV provided that make me feel so uncomfortable plus not able to focus on the movie and end up falling asleep.zz =_=
And that was also the day I finally ask beng to be my prom partner. Finally can build up the courage to ask her la. coz i really the shy-type wan mar. hahaha. I will try my best and change for the better.I promised. I really hope we will did great during prom. =]

Then the day after, went to sungai wang and Time Square. Shop till you drop dead man. =_= I really beh tahan the long hours non-stop walk. Plus i never get to go to Sungai wang cos i came late. and the early comers already went. hais. Oh well, i saw most of my friends bought alot of things, and I myself also finally buy shoes for prom. Like the shoes plus is cheap with a price of RM55 =) quite satisfied now. hahaha.
And i have a word to pheng and beng. please don't walk so fast, I really hard to catch up to you all.
beh tahan d lo. always walk so fast without telling others. suddenly disappear then suddenly appear again out of nowhere. waaa...the reason why my leg so cramp la..LOL. ~.~