Oh god. whyyyyyy.

The year is 2013. Been a year since I last update. Lately, been thinking of getting back to blogging.

(Browsing back old posts, really had me embarrassed the hell out of me. so childish back then. -.- ) 

Anyway, let's get down to the point,
Last week, I was on a trip to Langkawi with bunch of friends.
It was a fun excursion and all, till one night I started to consumed a large quantity of alcoholic beverage,
and BAM!! I got drunk.
It was a first timer for me, as I'd never been drunk before with alcohol, i guess I just drank too much that night.
Now that I know, when you are drunk, you can hardly speak right, your mind keep wondering around and not thinking straight completely. You feel high as fuck yet at the same time dizzy as well.
Fortunately, I have not completely lost all my senses yet. I am half controlling my own mind and the other half, god knows where it went. -_-
So in short, I was 50/50 awake with normal consciousness.
The best part will be me, laughing non-stop at almost anything. you can't control the laughter, even when you sleep.  Okay that's scary. -.-
Let's just believed that night I didn't say anything unnecessary, or embarrassing stuffs.  I'd forgotten half of it . .__.
Anyhow, it was a great night and it's no wonder people like to consumed alcohol when they are on stress or sad, now that I know it helps to escape reality for a short time, which is fine, after all, we sometimes have to enjoyed life to the fullest without any hindrance or obstacle that blocking your happiness.

Mood level as of current: Great. :)

Dota 2.

After so many attempts. I finally get my hand on a beta key. Yes , I can play DoTA2 now. Finally. :)

Back 2012. :)

I'd return after seems like a long disappearance from here. Been a long time. :)
Today I was trying to write something that will b related to my feeling, about my life I'm having right now. Probably there are no reader that will read this post, since it is already dead for almost 2 years now. Well, I will just take it as extra work essay since I'm free, so I will just rant it out. I will just take it as my personal diary, so next time when I age, I will read back what I 'd wrote, that is the feeling right now.

It was 4:14AM now. That is the time that is display in my MBP. Yes it was late now, I don't plan to sleep, lately I am having insomnia due to my design work. I am currently taking the multimedia design course. It was the year 2012, and I am already 20 years old, well not exactly, since my birthday is still in August. Time flies. :( is sad but it is the truth, sooner I will age and be long gone from this world. There is this saying, "time waits no one". It is telling us that time will be going fast, and life must go on, that time will not be waiting for you.

Right now I am in college. College life was well....mediocre i would say, sometimes I face difficulty in life, and sometimes assignments will come in with huge tiding waves that will wash you away instantly, but I will stand on my ground and face it nevertheless. I finally realize that when people grow older we have many doubts, and there will not be any more solid trust between us anymore. Is hard to find trust nowadays. Regardless I will try my utmost to have faint in my life about doing things. Because sooner or later, when I go out to work, I might face more difficult task.

Looking back at myself, the past few years when I was in Secondary school. I realize I'd change so much. Right now I really feel kinda disgusted for what I did in the past. because of many misunderstanding, I had lost friends ... an unhappy ending during my secondary school life. I didn't had good memories back then. but I will just accept the fact.

And now, when I went into college, I'd decided to let out a fresh start, realizing my mistakes in my past life and start anew. Never did I know, I actually make it; slowly, and gradually....my life goes on. improving bits by bits. I'd learn to be open up with everyone, I am happy. I didn't know that I'd come this far. If i ever had the chance to get back at my old buddy, I think I am mentally prepare to face the consequence, it might be awkward, we might end up hating each other, we might end up be friends again, who knows. regardless of the outcome, life will still goes on, I believe I am strong enough to take on life now. :)

Ahhh, I hope I will realize my dream too. My dream to travel the world, especially Japan. from my early days I'd the thought to furthur my studies in Japan, I was planning to focus on animation right there. other than that I plan to visit as many places too as I can. The world is big, it makes me curious how time and places will change my life to the better

Untill then I will try my best to succeed and work hard I mean REALLL HARD . Gambateh. >.<.
Ciao~ :]

Back.

yeah, i know ,not blogging for a few months ler...

Now i am back. here's a summary for what i've done this past few months.

-Stone at home.
-Mapling.
-Dota-ing.
I know lar, very lifeless one.....
what to do. no work + college still havent start.
Speaking of college, oh man, i cant wait for my college to start.
Been to Open Day at TarCollege. Reached there, kap tio many many leng lui..hehehe, no need scare can't find la..hahaha xD
well, I'd already applied for my course, that is Multimedia Design. Yeah, at 1st i was thinking of taking up hotel one, but then I think twice la of course, must really choose the corect path marh. . so was thinking quite some time,in the end decided to take up design wan, as i have interest in drawing and creative. =)
Really kinda excited to be studying in a new environment, hope it can meet my satisfaction la. 10th of May start lesson. still need to wait till so long. =.=
Oh well, no choice but to slowly wait la.

=D

Yui- Gloria

Oh noess... I starting to like YUI even more now.
Damn it, why does her songs always got me hooked. =_=
Blame you la YUI, for making such awesome songs. xD

Those who don't know who on earth is YUI, well i can only guess that you are either not an anime freak now or before or doesn't listen to Japanese songs much. ( She's the one who sing Rolling Star for one of the Bleach opening afterall)..and she kinda famous among young people like us. :)
I will be surprise if you do not know her.
Why she rocks you ask? because she is awesome and cool wei..hey, if you look closely she is kinda pretty too. ^^
Normally, when I listen to songs, i don't really care much about the singer one.
I'll just listen the songs randomly, as long as it is nice, I will just listen with ease.
But YUI is a different story. hahaah..I just happen to love her songs and YUI herself too. hahaha
She has release her new album recently, with her main songs for her new album called Gloria.
Her Gloria songs is so far the best i've heard.
Plus, the lyrics really suits me in person..the me before is just like what the lyrics written. (stated below.)

Hey, try listening. I'm sure you will like it. :)

Here's the PV for her new songs. ^^

YUI-
GLORIA

Lyrics

ah ah ah ah ah
Miwaku no tobira jyuurai no tenbou datte
yuragisou ni naru seishun jidai de
jinsei ga kawaru koishitai no ni
okubyou ni naru mondai yamadzuminan da
kotae wo michibiku tame ni ha This feeling
kirisuterarenai All night long

Yume janaiyai yai yai yai yai?
te ga todokisou na GLORIA
tama ni mienakunatte

Cry yai yai yai yai yai?
chikamichi wo sagashite mo onaji ne
mata mayotte shimau desho

ah ah ah ah ah
seikousha no koe takadaka ni
kataru EPISOODO taningoto mitai
ima no watashi chiisana heya de
kangaeteiru kuusou no mirai ni
toikakete miru keredo That feeling
IMEEJI dekinai no ga All night long

Maketenai yai yai yai yai?
Kagayaku saki ni GLORIA
chikadzuiteru hazu sa

Cry yai yai yai yai yai?
Mou dare no sei ni mo shinai yo
zenbu dakishimeteiku
Muchuu ni narena kya uso ne

uh uh uh sakura ga saku koro ni kitto
uh uh uh atarashii jibun ni deaeru no

yume janai hazu yo mukuwareru to shinjiteru
hontou ha kowaii kedo
Cry yai yai yai yai yai?
kuyashii kimochi ga aru kara Get Glory days*

Maketenai yai yai yai yai?
kagayaku saki ni GLORIA
chikadzuiteru hazu sa

Cry yai yai yai yai yai?
nemurenai yoru ni hitori
hiza wo kakaekonde mo
baby naiteru jikan ha nai

ah ah ah ah ah

English Translation

ah ah ah ah ah
The door to fascination? Even your view of your future
Tries to change, because of your youth
Your life changes, you want a girlfriend/boyfriend
But you become a coward, it's like a mountain full of challenges
In order to find the answer,
I can't throw away this feeling, all night long

Isn't it your dream?
Just a bit more, and you feel you can reach it
Sometimes I can't see it anymore

Cry?
It's the same even if you look for a shortcut
You'll just get lost again

ah ah ah ah ah
All the successful people, they boast
about their experiences, but they sound like they're talking about others
And here I am, in this small room
Thinking, Dreaming of my future
I ask myself, but
I can't imagine that feeling, all night long

Aren't you losing?
GLORIA just past that bright future
You sure are getting closer

Cry?
I won't blame others anymore
I'll take it all myself
If you can't forget about youself and do this frantically, it's all a lie

uh uh uh When sakura starts blooming
uh uh uh I'll probably be able to find my new self

It's not a dream, you believe that you can do this
Although I'm scared inside

Cry?
You feel vexed, so Get glory days

Aren't you losing?
GLORIA in front of the bright future
You sure are getting closer

Cry?
Alone during sleepless nights
Even when you wrap your arms around your knees
baby theres no time to cry

ah ah ah ah ah

Nostalgic feeling...=D 1st day school reopen at Puay Chai

hehehe...Puay Chai ar, my ex-school. Long lost school..lol...
Wow, it has been a very long time since I last went there wei. =) It really does bring back lots of lots of my old memories.
I went there is because of the only and sole reason = to bring my standard 2 bro to school...X)
I am always hoping and waiting to get a chance to see my primary school again, never thought now i finally get the chance to have a look. =p
Once I stepped into the school ground on that day, I have this very exciting feeling to be back..hahaha..
The same guard house.... the same bookstore..OMG..i still recognize the aunty at the bookstore, wow.. work so many years ar..hahahaha..I still remember when I was 7 or 8, almost everytime after recess, i would run down to the bookstore to buy Pokemon erasers, got 1 time i buy too many ady then let the aunty scold, almost make me cried....hahaha...
Then, there is also the spot for me and my friend to hang out all the time. Everytime during recess I would always be there with my friends playing around..behind the canteen..the longkang walkway there...haha very dirty and smelly wan..but we still hang out there..xD
The school really did change alot. I can barely recognize the canteen as it has been upgraded to a second floor and was added new decoration and is much more cleaner and brighter. Unlike the old times when the canteen is always dark and dirty plus is was hot..hahaha..xD
I saw my standard 5,6 form teacher..waa..she still look the same, but sadly i cant greet her as she seems to be busy with her works.=(
I saw many others familar looking teachers as well...there is also this teacher who teaches me tuition when I was standard 2,3 was still around at that school..waaaa...all like so busy..cant greet all of em..new school term eh...what a busy day for a teacher. =)
But really la...damn alot of memories...i keep smiling as I walk alone and slowly taking my time exploring the school..and at the same time, remembering old memories what I used to play at those familiar places. Really happy to be back at my ex-school. =) not regretting going at all. =D

School days really does looks fun afterall. I really wish to be back in school. but too bad, i'd already reached the stage where I can't return, sorry school..=( but I will always cherish those happy moment and will never forget my friends. ^^

The place where I used to hang out with my friends. smelly and dirty .haha

Waaasai~ standard 1 students. That boy geng..1st day at school already started sleeping. I salute you. =D =D

Pek yau ar? lai lo..xD

Canteen =)

The place where I used to buy my food and drink.=)

The R&R spot I used to play with my friends and catch Ants. LOL xD

The stairs I always used to run and play with.xD

My spot where I used to sit and eat with my friends. Exactly at this position. xD

Canteen!! Changed alot. =)

My standard 6 classroom. The walkway that I always used. hahaha

Yeap.My standard 6 classroom. =D *front*

*back*

Bye 2009 . Hey whats up 2010. =)

Happy New Year. :)
Yeah, I know it was fast. FAST. I am getting old. T_T. Slowly and steadily Year 2009 is creating space for year 2010 to step in. People are ready to cherish the memories of 2009, learn from their mistakes and make resolutions of not repeating them in the coming year.
I too, will wish everyone happiness and all the best in life. :)
So yeah...Hope you guys will enjoy a brand new year. Enjoy your life to the fullest larh. =D =D =)