The moment when life hits you hard. I am barely able to sleep the previous night because I'm unable to put aside the thoughts of having an insurance exam the day after. Well, it's wasn't just that, to add on to the stress, what really hits me was that this insurance thing that I am doing allowed me to open up my eyes to truly understand the weakness in myself. My weakness was that I wasn't able to fully communicate well with outside people, unable to converse the meaning in a well-structured sentence. And here comes the second reason why I was on the verge of losing myself, my circle of friends is very limited.
You see, my problems are all inter-connected with one another. When insurance wanted to start cold-calling. I started to feel lost about myself, who do I start to call? I don't have many supportive friends surrounding me. This is why I have to change, I got to be myself, to stay positive and do what I love to do, by equipping a positive mindset and talk with people, thus enhance that friendship level.
Monday, October 24, 2016
Sunday, July 14, 2013
I'm .... surprised.
Went to Paradigm Mall to watch Pacific Rim.
Sadly, I went alone as my family doesn't even have the slight interest in watching giant robots fighting giant monsters.Instead of course, they went for Despicable Me 2 as an escort for my bro.
Without a doubt, and I was right, Pacific Rim just nailed it. It was a spectacular film. The feeling reminds me of watching Ultraman and Power Rangers for the first time. Combined!
That epic-ness,
That insane special effects.
Simply awesome.
At some scenes , just left me with my mouth wide open. = =
After that awesome thrilling experience, we went looking for place to eat. All of us suggested Sushi Zanmai, but as popular as it is, of course that place is filled and people are still queuing up outside. Are they really that desperate. D: There are always an alternative option you know.
It wasn't long after having done with our meal, we came across a well made Samsung booths event.
They are having great deal of promotion, it actually attracts quite a number of people.
Phones and tablets are display everywhere for the public to interact with.
Thus, me and Dad happen to be playing around with the S4. we were actually mesmerized by it's technology and functionality.
Dad loves it very much.
He said it was a very user friendly smartphone.
He said, it was better than his Iphone 5.
He said the flip cover is very nice.
He then...... decided to buy one for me. o.o
eh...o.O.
As if Pacific Rim hadn't surprised me enough, I was strike with another one. o.o
What's really cool is that, he didn't even hesitate and just purchased it for me.
I am so grateful. T.T
I thought he was going to buy it for himself. But I was wrong.
You are coolest dad ever. thankful and grateful . much appreciate. I promised to repay you someday. T.T
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| very much appreciative. |
I once wanted a Note 2, but S4 ain't that bad of a smartphone either, it has a 13 megapixels camera. Super HD at that. o.O
What a shocking day indeed. -.-
Thursday, June 20, 2013
:))
Lately been having a very hectic schedule on battling the wave.
Despite that, I can still certain to think that I am capable of leisurely taking my time to procrastinate.
I am having a hard time on webpage. It just ain't my cup of tea. (Why this subject exists in the first place. hai~)
I just don't like observing digits. (That doesn't mean my maths is bad.)
Regardless, I won't be giving up; is not an optionnnn.~
Got to start to make an effort to really understand the material that I am learning. Step my steps sure can success one. :)) *optimism level to the max*
I guess I will work out more too, it gives me little bit of aspiration and motivation after that.
On a side note, today when I was in the LRT, in the midst of my nap, I was awoken by two Japanese and two Malaysian chatting and communicating with each other across me. It was actually quite a pleasant sight, as they are friendly and jokingly teaching their own language to each others.
and they burst out laughing together.
Haha, I was actually laughing too. Nasib they didn't noticed me. o.O
I really like observing people enjoying themselves, it actually helps spread more smiles on the surrounding.
It hinted me with the thoughts of "People should leave no regrets and look forward with a smile." :))
Peace out.~ ._.v
I am having a hard time on webpage. It just ain't my cup of tea. (Why this subject exists in the first place. hai~)
I just don't like observing digits. (That doesn't mean my maths is bad.)
Regardless, I won't be giving up; is not an optionnnn.~
Got to start to make an effort to really understand the material that I am learning. Step my steps sure can success one. :)) *optimism level to the max*
I guess I will work out more too, it gives me little bit of aspiration and motivation after that.
On a side note, today when I was in the LRT, in the midst of my nap, I was awoken by two Japanese and two Malaysian chatting and communicating with each other across me. It was actually quite a pleasant sight, as they are friendly and jokingly teaching their own language to each others.
I overheard the Malaysian taught the Japanese how to pronounce ' Mailbox ' in English.
And guess how they pronounced..... "Mewwwbocks".
" What? Nooooo, not "mewwwww" is "mailllllll" replied one of the Malaysian.
"Kawaii ne" . replied the other.
and they burst out laughing together.
Haha, I was actually laughing too. Nasib they didn't noticed me. o.O
I really like observing people enjoying themselves, it actually helps spread more smiles on the surrounding.
It hinted me with the thoughts of "People should leave no regrets and look forward with a smile." :))
Peace out.~ ._.v
Wednesday, June 12, 2013
Cincai post.
randomness.
- Dear god! Please present us a cooling weather. Currently the weather is like sauna. Even after raining, the bloody heat is still wandering and hanging around the air. D:
- Finally succeeded in resolving on handing my college fees. ole ole. ~
- Please kindly don't cut off a person's conversation if necessary. It's kinda rude. :/
- Da fuq, I slept in the LRT and my head nearly tilted and leaned over to the person beside me. ( The girl opposite revealed a dim laugh ). sai lou lui, so funny meh. -.-
- Went to clinic with a long face, to get medicine for the cough.
To my surprise, doctor was a young lady, quite pretty too. o.O not bad eh~ got sweet smile some more, it actually brightens up my day a bit. lol
I guess she is married , as I saw children drawing hanging around on the wall. - Dyed my hair with color; light brown. Turns out it wasn't what I expected, but still, I'm fine with it.
- Procrastinate on my assignments as usual.
- Oh, Happy Birthday to my sis. :))
Tuesday, June 11, 2013
Wait.....What?
Today, it was supposed to be a good start at college and guess what...
The bloody process of paying school fees for the college just killed my mood.
Why the hell the procedure and services in Malaysia doesn't make life easier for the people, instead always have to go through the troublesome route. So laid-back kind of doing things.
Although, in this case, most of the time I believed is my own carelessness lar.
Regardless, I still beh song.. the counter lady doesn't smile , it makes my mood even worst. ._.
1st attempt - Prior to today; last week, the awesome me tried to pay le school fee, ended up got rejected by telling me,
" you have to photocopy TWO copies of your bill. "
* Stares at me with that serious look*
o.O
okkayyy. *somehow feeling annoyed*
* Walks away like an idiot*
Oh by the way, I was sweating quite profusely.
Meanwhile, In the lift alone.......
FFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU !! o0o
The bloody process of paying school fees for the college just killed my mood.
Why the hell the procedure and services in Malaysia doesn't make life easier for the people, instead always have to go through the troublesome route. So laid-back kind of doing things.
Although, in this case, most of the time I believed is my own carelessness lar.
Regardless, I still beh song.. the counter lady doesn't smile , it makes my mood even worst. ._.
1st attempt - Prior to today; last week, the awesome me tried to pay le school fee, ended up got rejected by telling me,
" you have to photocopy TWO copies of your bill. "
* Stares at me with that serious look*
o.O
okkayyy. *somehow feeling annoyed*
2nd attempt - Today, went there with TWO copies of my bill, took the number , macam yes like that, waited for around 30mins, mana tau ended up got rejected the second time by telling me.
" You never change your card limit? please read the instruction "
*O.O oh crapp*
*O.O oh crapp*
Aduiii~ , I'd totally forgotten that I got my new public bank card, so I have to change the withdrawal limit and thus I went back to the ATM and did the amending.
3rd attempt - Took the number like a lou sai and waited for about 20 mins, but this time really zha dou, I got rejected again of course and I was told AGAIN......
3rd attempt - Took the number like a lou sai and waited for about 20 mins, but this time really zha dou, I got rejected again of course and I was told AGAIN......
*Again with the moody expression of her*
" You didn't change your card limit? read the instruction over there "
" huh? oh..Okay. "
My inner thoughts ---> (TMD. I thought I just changed eh. o.O. .play me a ??!!)
" huh? oh..Okay. "
My inner thoughts ---> (TMD. I thought I just changed eh. o.O. .play me a ??!!)
so I went back to the ATM thinking do I actually did wrong. And little did I know, kns eh, I really so stupid select the wrong choice indeed. There are both almost the same, one is Withdrawal Limit and the other one is don't know apa Daily Limit. I should be selecting the daily limit and change that one instead, not the withdrawal limit. And so realizing what an idiot I am and finally changed it this time, thinking it should be fine and all and I went back to the bursary to settle it up once and for all Biaaaaatch!!~~ You think is over right? And I was so wrong. -_-
4th attempt - Took the number confidently, thought can settle it ady.. finally finally~ Waited for about 25 mins. Went to the counter and that same lady told me
*Again, with the same noob moody face*" You didn't change your card limit? "
" Erm, yeah, I had already changed it -.-"
My inner thoughts ---> (What!! What the fuck is this shit.)
4th attempt - Took the number confidently, thought can settle it ady.. finally finally~ Waited for about 25 mins. Went to the counter and that same lady told me
*Again, with the same noob moody face*" You didn't change your card limit? "
" Erm, yeah, I had already changed it -.-"
My inner thoughts ---> (What!! What the fuck is this shit.)
" When did you change? "" Today, like just now? o.O "
" Oh, today cannottt, *shakes head* come again tomorrow "
*poker face* " Oh. Okay. " * Walks away like an idiot*
Oh by the way, I was sweating quite profusely.
Meanwhile, In the lift alone.......
FFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU !! o0o
Mood level as of current : Down. .. Why so hot. What's with the weather here. Please rain more. :((
Thursday, April 25, 2013
Oh god. whyyyyyy.
The year is 2013. Been a year since I last update. Lately, been thinking of getting back to blogging.
(Browsing back old posts, really had me embarrassed the hell out of me. so childish back then. -.- )
Anyway, let's get down to the point,
Last week, I was on a trip to Langkawi with bunch of friends.
It was a fun excursion and all, till one night I started to consumed a large quantity of alcoholic beverage,
and BAM!! I got drunk.
It was a first timer for me, as I'd never been drunk before with alcohol, i guess I just drank too much that night.
Now that I know, when you are drunk, you can hardly speak right, your mind keep wondering around and not thinking straight completely. You feel high as fuck yet at the same time dizzy as well.
Fortunately, I have not completely lost all my senses yet. I am half controlling my own mind and the other half, god knows where it went. -_-
So in short, I was 50/50 awake with normal consciousness.
The best part will be me, laughing non-stop at almost anything. you can't control the laughter, even when you sleep. Okay that's scary. -.-
Let's just believed that night I didn't say anything unnecessary, or embarrassing stuffs. I'd forgotten half of it . .__.
Anyhow, it was a great night and it's no wonder people like to consumed alcohol when they are on stress or sad, now that I know it helps to escape reality for a short time, which is fine, after all, we sometimes have to enjoyed life to the fullest without any hindrance or obstacle that blocking your happiness.
Mood level as of current: Great. :)
Anyway, let's get down to the point,
Last week, I was on a trip to Langkawi with bunch of friends.
It was a fun excursion and all, till one night I started to consumed a large quantity of alcoholic beverage,
and BAM!! I got drunk.
It was a first timer for me, as I'd never been drunk before with alcohol, i guess I just drank too much that night.
Now that I know, when you are drunk, you can hardly speak right, your mind keep wondering around and not thinking straight completely. You feel high as fuck yet at the same time dizzy as well.
Fortunately, I have not completely lost all my senses yet. I am half controlling my own mind and the other half, god knows where it went. -_-
So in short, I was 50/50 awake with normal consciousness.
The best part will be me, laughing non-stop at almost anything. you can't control the laughter, even when you sleep. Okay that's scary. -.-
Let's just believed that night I didn't say anything unnecessary, or embarrassing stuffs. I'd forgotten half of it . .__.
Anyhow, it was a great night and it's no wonder people like to consumed alcohol when they are on stress or sad, now that I know it helps to escape reality for a short time, which is fine, after all, we sometimes have to enjoyed life to the fullest without any hindrance or obstacle that blocking your happiness.
Mood level as of current: Great. :)
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
Dota 2.
After so many attempts. I finally get my hand on a beta key. Yes , I can play DoTA2 now. Finally. :)
Sunday, April 1, 2012
Back 2012. :)
I'd return after seems like a long disappearance from here. Been a long time. :)
Today I was trying to write something that will b related to my feeling, about my life I'm having right now. Probably there are no reader that will read this post, since it is already dead for almost 2 years now. Well, I will just take it as extra work essay since I'm free, so I will just rant it out. I will just take it as my personal diary, so next time when I age, I will read back what I 'd wrote, that is the feeling right now.
It was 4:14AM now. That is the time that is display in my MBP. Yes it was late now, I don't plan to sleep, lately I am having insomnia due to my design work. I am currently taking the multimedia design course. It was the year 2012, and I am already 20 years old, well not exactly, since my birthday is still in August. Time flies. :( is sad but it is the truth, sooner I will age and be long gone from this world. There is this saying, "time waits no one". It is telling us that time will be going fast, and life must go on, that time will not be waiting for you.
Right now I am in college. College life was well....mediocre i would say, sometimes I face difficulty in life, and sometimes assignments will come in with huge tiding waves that will wash you away instantly, but I will stand on my ground and face it nevertheless. I finally realize that when people grow older we have many doubts, and there will not be any more solid trust between us anymore. Is hard to find trust nowadays. Regardless I will try my utmost to have faint in my life about doing things. Because sooner or later, when I go out to work, I might face more difficult task.
Looking back at myself, the past few years when I was in Secondary school. I realize I'd change so much. Right now I really feel kinda disgusted for what I did in the past. because of many misunderstanding, I had lost friends ... an unhappy ending during my secondary school life. I didn't had good memories back then. but I will just accept the fact.
And now, when I went into college, I'd decided to let out a fresh start, realizing my mistakes in my past life and start anew. Never did I know, I actually make it; slowly, and gradually....my life goes on. improving bits by bits. I'd learn to be open up with everyone, I am happy. I didn't know that I'd come this far. If i ever had the chance to get back at my old buddy, I think I am mentally prepare to face the consequence, it might be awkward, we might end up hating each other, we might end up be friends again, who knows. regardless of the outcome, life will still goes on, I believe I am strong enough to take on life now. :)
Ahhh, I hope I will realize my dream too. My dream to travel the world, especially Japan. from my early days I'd the thought to furthur my studies in Japan, I was planning to focus on animation right there. other than that I plan to visit as many places too as I can. The world is big, it makes me curious how time and places will change my life to the better
Untill then I will try my best to succeed and work hard I mean REALLL HARD . Gambateh. >.<.
Ciao~ :]
Today I was trying to write something that will b related to my feeling, about my life I'm having right now. Probably there are no reader that will read this post, since it is already dead for almost 2 years now. Well, I will just take it as extra work essay since I'm free, so I will just rant it out. I will just take it as my personal diary, so next time when I age, I will read back what I 'd wrote, that is the feeling right now.
It was 4:14AM now. That is the time that is display in my MBP. Yes it was late now, I don't plan to sleep, lately I am having insomnia due to my design work. I am currently taking the multimedia design course. It was the year 2012, and I am already 20 years old, well not exactly, since my birthday is still in August. Time flies. :( is sad but it is the truth, sooner I will age and be long gone from this world. There is this saying, "time waits no one". It is telling us that time will be going fast, and life must go on, that time will not be waiting for you.
Right now I am in college. College life was well....mediocre i would say, sometimes I face difficulty in life, and sometimes assignments will come in with huge tiding waves that will wash you away instantly, but I will stand on my ground and face it nevertheless. I finally realize that when people grow older we have many doubts, and there will not be any more solid trust between us anymore. Is hard to find trust nowadays. Regardless I will try my utmost to have faint in my life about doing things. Because sooner or later, when I go out to work, I might face more difficult task.
Looking back at myself, the past few years when I was in Secondary school. I realize I'd change so much. Right now I really feel kinda disgusted for what I did in the past. because of many misunderstanding, I had lost friends ... an unhappy ending during my secondary school life. I didn't had good memories back then. but I will just accept the fact.
And now, when I went into college, I'd decided to let out a fresh start, realizing my mistakes in my past life and start anew. Never did I know, I actually make it; slowly, and gradually....my life goes on. improving bits by bits. I'd learn to be open up with everyone, I am happy. I didn't know that I'd come this far. If i ever had the chance to get back at my old buddy, I think I am mentally prepare to face the consequence, it might be awkward, we might end up hating each other, we might end up be friends again, who knows. regardless of the outcome, life will still goes on, I believe I am strong enough to take on life now. :)
Ahhh, I hope I will realize my dream too. My dream to travel the world, especially Japan. from my early days I'd the thought to furthur my studies in Japan, I was planning to focus on animation right there. other than that I plan to visit as many places too as I can. The world is big, it makes me curious how time and places will change my life to the better
Untill then I will try my best to succeed and work hard I mean REALLL HARD . Gambateh. >.<.
Ciao~ :]
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Back.
yeah, i know ,not blogging for a few months ler...
Now i am back. here's a summary for what i've done this past few months.
-Stone at home.
-Mapling.
-Dota-ing.
I know lar, very lifeless one.....
what to do. no work + college still havent start.
Speaking of college, oh man, i cant wait for my college to start.
Been to Open Day at TarCollege. Reached there, kap tio many many leng lui..hehehe, no need scare can't find la..hahaha xD
well, I'd already applied for my course, that is Multimedia Design. Yeah, at 1st i was thinking of taking up hotel one, but then I think twice la of course, must really choose the corect path marh. . so was thinking quite some time,in the end decided to take up design wan, as i have interest in drawing and creative. =)
Really kinda excited to be studying in a new environment, hope it can meet my satisfaction la. 10th of May start lesson. still need to wait till so long. =.=
Oh well, no choice but to slowly wait la.
=D
Now i am back. here's a summary for what i've done this past few months.
-Stone at home.
-Mapling.
-Dota-ing.
I know lar, very lifeless one.....
what to do. no work + college still havent start.
Speaking of college, oh man, i cant wait for my college to start.
Been to Open Day at TarCollege. Reached there, kap tio many many leng lui..hehehe, no need scare can't find la..hahaha xD
well, I'd already applied for my course, that is Multimedia Design. Yeah, at 1st i was thinking of taking up hotel one, but then I think twice la of course, must really choose the corect path marh. . so was thinking quite some time,in the end decided to take up design wan, as i have interest in drawing and creative. =)
Really kinda excited to be studying in a new environment, hope it can meet my satisfaction la. 10th of May start lesson. still need to wait till so long. =.=
Oh well, no choice but to slowly wait la.
=D
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Yui- Gloria
Oh noess... I starting to like YUI even more now.
Damn it, why does her songs always got me hooked. =_=
Blame you la YUI, for making such awesome songs. xD
Those who don't know who on earth is YUI, well i can only guess that you are either not an anime freak now or before or doesn't listen to Japanese songs much. ( She's the one who sing Rolling Star for one of the Bleach opening afterall)..and she kinda famous among young people like us. :)
I will be surprise if you do not know her.
Why she rocks you ask? because she is awesome and cool wei..hey, if you look closely she is kinda pretty too. ^^
Normally, when I listen to songs, i don't really care much about the singer one.
I'll just listen the songs randomly, as long as it is nice, I will just listen with ease.
But YUI is a different story. hahaah..I just happen to love her songs and YUI herself too. hahaha
She has release her new album recently, with her main songs for her new album called Gloria.
Her Gloria songs is so far the best i've heard.
Plus, the lyrics really suits me in person..the me before is just like what the lyrics written. (stated below.)
Hey, try listening. I'm sure you will like it. :)
Here's the PV for her new songs. ^^
YUI-
GLORIA
Lyrics
ah ah ah ah ah
Miwaku no tobira jyuurai no tenbou datte
yuragisou ni naru seishun jidai de
jinsei ga kawaru koishitai no ni
okubyou ni naru mondai yamadzuminan da
kotae wo michibiku tame ni ha This feeling
kirisuterarenai All night long
Yume janaiyai yai yai yai yai?
te ga todokisou na GLORIA
tama ni mienakunatte
Cry yai yai yai yai yai?
chikamichi wo sagashite mo onaji ne
mata mayotte shimau desho
ah ah ah ah ah
seikousha no koe takadaka ni
kataru EPISOODO taningoto mitai
ima no watashi chiisana heya de
kangaeteiru kuusou no mirai ni
toikakete miru keredo That feeling
IMEEJI dekinai no ga All night long
Maketenai yai yai yai yai?
Kagayaku saki ni GLORIA
chikadzuiteru hazu sa
Cry yai yai yai yai yai?
Mou dare no sei ni mo shinai yo
zenbu dakishimeteiku
Muchuu ni narena kya uso ne
uh uh uh sakura ga saku koro ni kitto
uh uh uh atarashii jibun ni deaeru no
yume janai hazu yo mukuwareru to shinjiteru
hontou ha kowaii kedo
Cry yai yai yai yai yai?
kuyashii kimochi ga aru kara Get Glory days*
Maketenai yai yai yai yai?
kagayaku saki ni GLORIA
chikadzuiteru hazu sa
Cry yai yai yai yai yai?
nemurenai yoru ni hitori
hiza wo kakaekonde mo
baby naiteru jikan ha nai
ah ah ah ah ah
English Translation
ah ah ah ah ah
The door to fascination? Even your view of your future
Tries to change, because of your youth
Your life changes, you want a girlfriend/boyfriend
But you become a coward, it's like a mountain full of challenges
In order to find the answer,
I can't throw away this feeling, all night long
Isn't it your dream?
Just a bit more, and you feel you can reach it
Sometimes I can't see it anymore
Cry?
It's the same even if you look for a shortcut
You'll just get lost again
ah ah ah ah ah
All the successful people, they boast
about their experiences, but they sound like they're talking about others
And here I am, in this small room
Thinking, Dreaming of my future
I ask myself, but
I can't imagine that feeling, all night long
Aren't you losing?
GLORIA just past that bright future
You sure are getting closer
Cry?
I won't blame others anymore
I'll take it all myself
If you can't forget about youself and do this frantically, it's all a lie
uh uh uh When sakura starts blooming
uh uh uh I'll probably be able to find my new self
It's not a dream, you believe that you can do this
Although I'm scared inside
Cry?
You feel vexed, so Get glory days
Aren't you losing?
GLORIA in front of the bright future
You sure are getting closer
Cry?
Alone during sleepless nights
Even when you wrap your arms around your knees
baby theres no time to cry
ah ah ah ah ah
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Nostalgic feeling...=D 1st day school reopen at Puay Chai
hehehe...Puay Chai ar, my ex-school. Long lost school..lol...
Wow, it has been a very long time since I last went there wei. =) It really does bring back lots of lots of my old memories.
I went there is because of the only and sole reason = to bring my standard 2 bro to school...X)
I am always hoping and waiting to get a chance to see my primary school again, never thought now i finally get the chance to have a look. =p
Once I stepped into the school ground on that day, I have this very exciting feeling to be back..hahaha..
The same guard house.... the same bookstore..OMG..i still recognize the aunty at the bookstore, wow.. work so many years ar..hahahaha..I still remember when I was 7 or 8, almost everytime after recess, i would run down to the bookstore to buy Pokemon erasers, got 1 time i buy too many ady then let the aunty scold, almost make me cried....hahaha...
Then, there is also the spot for me and my friend to hang out all the time. Everytime during recess I would always be there with my friends playing around..behind the canteen..the longkang walkway there...haha very dirty and smelly wan..but we still hang out there..xD
The school really did change alot. I can barely recognize the canteen as it has been upgraded to a second floor and was added new decoration and is much more cleaner and brighter. Unlike the old times when the canteen is always dark and dirty plus is was hot..hahaha..xD
I saw my standard 5,6 form teacher..waa..she still look the same, but sadly i cant greet her as she seems to be busy with her works.=(
I saw many others familar looking teachers as well...there is also this teacher who teaches me tuition when I was standard 2,3 was still around at that school..waaaa...all like so busy..cant greet all of em..new school term eh...what a busy day for a teacher. =)
But really la...damn alot of memories...i keep smiling as I walk alone and slowly taking my time exploring the school..and at the same time, remembering old memories what I used to play at those familiar places. Really happy to be back at my ex-school. =) not regretting going at all. =D
School days really does looks fun afterall. I really wish to be back in school. but too bad, i'd already reached the stage where I can't return, sorry school..=( but I will always cherish those happy moment and will never forget my friends. ^^
The place where I used to hang out with my friends. smelly and dirty .haha
Waaasai~ standard 1 students. That boy geng..1st day at school already started sleeping. I salute you. =D =D
Pek yau ar? lai lo..xD
Canteen =)
The place where I used to buy my food and drink.=)
The R&R spot I used to play with my friends and catch Ants. LOL xD
The stairs I always used to run and play with.xD
My spot where I used to sit and eat with my friends. Exactly at this position. xD
Canteen!! Changed alot. =)
My standard 6 classroom. The walkway that I always used. hahaha
Yeap.My standard 6 classroom. =D *front*
*back*
Wow, it has been a very long time since I last went there wei. =) It really does bring back lots of lots of my old memories.
I went there is because of the only and sole reason = to bring my standard 2 bro to school...X)
I am always hoping and waiting to get a chance to see my primary school again, never thought now i finally get the chance to have a look. =p
Once I stepped into the school ground on that day, I have this very exciting feeling to be back..hahaha..
The same guard house.... the same bookstore..OMG..i still recognize the aunty at the bookstore, wow.. work so many years ar..hahahaha..I still remember when I was 7 or 8, almost everytime after recess, i would run down to the bookstore to buy Pokemon erasers, got 1 time i buy too many ady then let the aunty scold, almost make me cried....hahaha...
Then, there is also the spot for me and my friend to hang out all the time. Everytime during recess I would always be there with my friends playing around..behind the canteen..the longkang walkway there...haha very dirty and smelly wan..but we still hang out there..xD
The school really did change alot. I can barely recognize the canteen as it has been upgraded to a second floor and was added new decoration and is much more cleaner and brighter. Unlike the old times when the canteen is always dark and dirty plus is was hot..hahaha..xD
I saw my standard 5,6 form teacher..waa..she still look the same, but sadly i cant greet her as she seems to be busy with her works.=(
I saw many others familar looking teachers as well...there is also this teacher who teaches me tuition when I was standard 2,3 was still around at that school..waaaa...all like so busy..cant greet all of em..new school term eh...what a busy day for a teacher. =)
But really la...damn alot of memories...i keep smiling as I walk alone and slowly taking my time exploring the school..and at the same time, remembering old memories what I used to play at those familiar places. Really happy to be back at my ex-school. =) not regretting going at all. =D
School days really does looks fun afterall. I really wish to be back in school. but too bad, i'd already reached the stage where I can't return, sorry school..=( but I will always cherish those happy moment and will never forget my friends. ^^
The place where I used to hang out with my friends. smelly and dirty .haha
Waaasai~ standard 1 students. That boy geng..1st day at school already started sleeping. I salute you. =D =D
Pek yau ar? lai lo..xD
Canteen =)
The place where I used to buy my food and drink.=)
The R&R spot I used to play with my friends and catch Ants. LOL xD
The stairs I always used to run and play with.xD
My spot where I used to sit and eat with my friends. Exactly at this position. xD
Canteen!! Changed alot. =)
My standard 6 classroom. The walkway that I always used. hahaha
Yeap.My standard 6 classroom. =D *front*
*back*Thursday, December 31, 2009
Bye 2009 . Hey whats up 2010. =)
Happy New Year. :)Yeah, I know it was fast. FAST. I am getting old. T_T. Slowly and steadily Year 2009 is creating space for year 2010 to step in. People are ready to cherish the memories of 2009, learn from their mistakes and make resolutions of not repeating them in the coming year.
I too, will wish everyone happiness and all the best in life. :)
So yeah...Hope you guys will enjoy a brand new year. Enjoy your life to the fullest larh. =D =D =)
You CAN advance. =)
Blaming on other people while didn't realize yourself.
People who take the blame will always get unsatisfied and starts to raise anger.
What is right? What is wrong?
Why do life have to encounter so many misunderstanding among people?
Why can't we be equal?
Why do people have different personalities?
Why do people have feelings and emotion.
When there is hatred, can it bring peace and harmony again?
When there is broken heart nor sadness, can it find its way back home?
When there is happiness will it last long?
or should I just say why do people even have to be born with feelings.
Questions keep buzzing through my mind. . .
I know that this world, there are always light and dark..
The scale will always maintain its balance..
But sometimes, I just hope that the darkness within us will just disappear,
such a hussle to have hatred, it can destroy peoples emotion.
but then again misunderstanding always occurs among us, thus bring forth hatred....damn diao wan lo. hais..~.~
I know that I myself too, sometimes might be very clueless as of what i am doing.
That is why larh..Understanding is important, it act as the basic foundation to achieve peace.
People really have different personality, that is what scares me most.
Sometimes i fear that i will met the wrong people and starts to argue...wrong key to the wrong socket.=-=~ hahahhaa
Well,
So for a new year to start, i have to change myself too..a new self...you can laugh at me if you want but this time i am serious. I myself also got many problem that i hate most. and hope that some day these problem that i owned will just perish right in front of my eyes..
My problem thus far are the following...
-Trying to act smart while i am not.
-Don't dare to face problem. Will always find excuses to cover it up.
-Always get shy around girls. Can't communicate with them well.
-A weakling and a lazy fella who always do things slowly and stupidly...
-Get irritated and pissed off easily.
-Get jealous easily and starts to get emo.
-Afraid of people who have high knowledge than me.
-Sometimes try to act lan ci and trying to be outstanding but abit also not cool.....=__=
-Never think before i act...
-Very confuse in everything, knowing the truth yet tries to escape; knowing it is possible yet dare not try; knowing it is correct yet kept quiet..
-Lastly, act like an idiot who always do things wrongly.
hahaha well i said it..~ pai seh wei..
Thats why sometimes i keep hating myself ..~ =/
and for now.... my goal is to overcome it, to have a change in life. to improve it, to get a good image.
I have to remain calm when i get pissed off.
Can't act violently regardless of what goes wrong. hehehe
Really la...must change d la.. I promised. I sure change wan. I will turn over a new leaf. =)
So... old friends. You heard? The next time you see me. I will be a different person..Hhahaha.. XD
I will take my life more serious ler la.. to make it more meaningful..dont always sit infront computer play play play..tiap tiap hari also like that..like no life at ALL.. =__=...
maybe i will just start drawing as an hobby or perhaps thinking of buying a guitar and learn to play with it by myself when there is free time. =)
That is all la.
Wow.. so late already. 3.20am o.o
Is time for bed...good night. ^^
People who take the blame will always get unsatisfied and starts to raise anger.
What is right? What is wrong?
Why do life have to encounter so many misunderstanding among people?
Why can't we be equal?
Why do people have different personalities?
Why do people have feelings and emotion.
When there is hatred, can it bring peace and harmony again?
When there is broken heart nor sadness, can it find its way back home?
When there is happiness will it last long?
or should I just say why do people even have to be born with feelings.
Questions keep buzzing through my mind. . .
I know that this world, there are always light and dark..
The scale will always maintain its balance..
But sometimes, I just hope that the darkness within us will just disappear,
such a hussle to have hatred, it can destroy peoples emotion.
but then again misunderstanding always occurs among us, thus bring forth hatred....damn diao wan lo. hais..~.~
I know that I myself too, sometimes might be very clueless as of what i am doing.
That is why larh..Understanding is important, it act as the basic foundation to achieve peace.
People really have different personality, that is what scares me most.
Sometimes i fear that i will met the wrong people and starts to argue...wrong key to the wrong socket.=-=~ hahahhaa
Well,
So for a new year to start, i have to change myself too..a new self...you can laugh at me if you want but this time i am serious. I myself also got many problem that i hate most. and hope that some day these problem that i owned will just perish right in front of my eyes..
My problem thus far are the following...
-Trying to act smart while i am not.
-Don't dare to face problem. Will always find excuses to cover it up.
-Always get shy around girls. Can't communicate with them well.
-A weakling and a lazy fella who always do things slowly and stupidly...
-Get irritated and pissed off easily.
-Get jealous easily and starts to get emo.
-Afraid of people who have high knowledge than me.
-Sometimes try to act lan ci and trying to be outstanding but abit also not cool.....=__=
-Never think before i act...
-Very confuse in everything, knowing the truth yet tries to escape; knowing it is possible yet dare not try; knowing it is correct yet kept quiet..
-Lastly, act like an idiot who always do things wrongly.
hahaha well i said it..~ pai seh wei..
Thats why sometimes i keep hating myself ..~ =/
and for now.... my goal is to overcome it, to have a change in life. to improve it, to get a good image.
I have to remain calm when i get pissed off.
Can't act violently regardless of what goes wrong. hehehe
Really la...must change d la.. I promised. I sure change wan. I will turn over a new leaf. =)
So... old friends. You heard? The next time you see me. I will be a different person..Hhahaha.. XD
I will take my life more serious ler la.. to make it more meaningful..dont always sit infront computer play play play..tiap tiap hari also like that..like no life at ALL.. =__=...
maybe i will just start drawing as an hobby or perhaps thinking of buying a guitar and learn to play with it by myself when there is free time. =)
That is all la.
Wow.. so late already. 3.20am o.o
Is time for bed...good night. ^^
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Vacancy ar.....
Just a few days ago i went to 1u to look for job. Edwin introduce me to work at a gym, place name, "celebrity fitness". When i step into the place, that guy at the reception give me a paper to fill up a form. Then, I was called upstairs for my interview. I was taken to a place where there is a round table and chairs for us to sit. and so i set down confidently, and then the girl started asking question.. . hahaha, no problem at all. i think i went through smoothly, i manage to answer all easily. i smile so brightly, macam like fake smile like that. =.= aiyo who cares la...as long i can make her to have good reputation of me and willing to hire me then i will do anything just to coax her. LOL!!! evil =.=
Girl : "Why are you interested in working ?"
Me: *Hesitate awhile and smile*
Girl: *scribble something on the paper not looking at me*
Me: *wtf...*
Me: "I want to work is because i want to get some good experience outside world. Since this is my 1st time at work. I want to get to know more things. To be able to communicate with people. To have a self-esteem. So that it can help me in the future when i am going to work."
Girl: "umm.."*nod head* "ummm...."*nod head*
Me: "Plus, if i dont work. I will be slacking at home, laze around and doing nothing as it is also a bad habbit for me."
Girl: "OK...so right now you sign here and write the date."
Me: O.O *means can hire me jor?*
Girl: "...and you will still have to wait for the second interview in our main brance in mid valley, so we will call you and let you know when we are ready larh."
Me: *Wtf...2nd intervew?? got such thing?*
Girl: "Thank you. You may go now. call your friend upstairs for interview."
Me: "Ok." *smile* "You can count on me for this job."
Girl: "alright" *nod head and smile*
And so, as you can see this is how I bluff lo, so fake right? ...LOL I work is because of money d lar.....other things who cares d..aiiyo..you got higher pay i ma work for you lo..if not choi lei dou ngong ar..aiya but i will work hard d . dont worry ..hahaha xD
Plus, i apply for a paperwork job...so i guess is fine with me. =)
1U most of the vacancy job only hire girls d.. so lame la.. come on ..why guys cant? i understand if you sell those cosmetic and girls attire la..but video shop want to hire girls only?? whats your problem man....summore i saw a shop that sell bracalet, necklace...only hire chinese girl . Wow..Come on..dont be so selfish la......
Girl : "Why are you interested in working ?"
Me: *Hesitate awhile and smile*
Girl: *scribble something on the paper not looking at me*
Me: *wtf...*
Me: "I want to work is because i want to get some good experience outside world. Since this is my 1st time at work. I want to get to know more things. To be able to communicate with people. To have a self-esteem. So that it can help me in the future when i am going to work."
Girl: "umm.."*nod head* "ummm...."*nod head*
Me: "Plus, if i dont work. I will be slacking at home, laze around and doing nothing as it is also a bad habbit for me."
Girl: "OK...so right now you sign here and write the date."
Me: O.O *means can hire me jor?*
Girl: "...and you will still have to wait for the second interview in our main brance in mid valley, so we will call you and let you know when we are ready larh."
Me: *Wtf...2nd intervew?? got such thing?*
Girl: "Thank you. You may go now. call your friend upstairs for interview."
Me: "Ok." *smile* "You can count on me for this job."
Girl: "alright" *nod head and smile*
And so, as you can see this is how I bluff lo, so fake right? ...LOL I work is because of money d lar.....other things who cares d..aiiyo..you got higher pay i ma work for you lo..if not choi lei dou ngong ar..aiya but i will work hard d . dont worry ..hahaha xD
Plus, i apply for a paperwork job...so i guess is fine with me. =)
1U most of the vacancy job only hire girls d.. so lame la.. come on ..why guys cant? i understand if you sell those cosmetic and girls attire la..but video shop want to hire girls only?? whats your problem man....summore i saw a shop that sell bracalet, necklace...only hire chinese girl . Wow..Come on..dont be so selfish la......
Friday, December 25, 2009
Merry Christmas. :)
Jinggle bell..ding ding ding.~ Christmas jor leh.. any plan to celebrate? hehe...
Well as for me, i will be having dinner party at one of my relative place tonight.
gonnna makan turkey. dunno sedap or not leh. forgot the taste d. lol..
So.....
I hereby wish all of you a merry chirstmas and a happy new year. May the essence of christmas remains always with you. and take care. hohohoho :)
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
SMKTS prom night 2009.
waa..what can i say leh? the best prom? the worst prom? lol..well to me i feel kinda regreted going. feeling quite down and bored. Only the dancing part that was able raise my mood. wow i nvr dance like this..like some crazy people..nvr dance so long in my life. or shud i say i nvr dance before. But during prom i really dance like siao. hahaha...dance man..like u r in a disco hahaha...
well, on the downside, is i actually dont enjoy much.
I feel like is not worth it.
The ballroom was small and the lighting is not good.sometimes i feel like it was kinda dark.
Plus..the voting for prom queen, king and best dress are quite unfair..as i saw a person cheating by voting 5 times or more of the same person. so yeah....this prom i can't say is good nor bad.is just depends on what i saw and my mood.
Last but not least, Congratz to prom king Nicholas Leong, prom queen Celine Chung and best dressed Yujie. U guys are awesome.
PROM rating overall.. 4/10 =)
well, on the downside, is i actually dont enjoy much.
I feel like is not worth it.
The ballroom was small and the lighting is not good.sometimes i feel like it was kinda dark.
Plus..the voting for prom queen, king and best dress are quite unfair..as i saw a person cheating by voting 5 times or more of the same person. so yeah....this prom i can't say is good nor bad.is just depends on what i saw and my mood.
Last but not least, Congratz to prom king Nicholas Leong, prom queen Celine Chung and best dressed Yujie. U guys are awesome.
PROM rating overall.. 4/10 =)
I have to think more positive.
Arh..~ i have been through alot. Alot man... Looking for a college to pursued my studies, and still have more to think of my life. Not really quite satisfied with my life right now. I still have more to learn. Have to be more mature.
Sometimes i just kinda hate myself for being so stupid and stuff. Keep saying the wrong word at the wrong time. Why do i end up like this. Life is hard when you step into adulthood, now only did I realize. Well, thats me man..sometimes i kinda jealous of you all that are enjoying your wonderful life everyday. smiling to people..laughing at jokes.. well to me is hard, i can hardly get any friends through communicate with them, perhaps i lack of humour in me.
I can't make them laugh...My jokes sucks. because of my language speaking i guess. realy regretting not taking chinese.. :( as i mostly speak chinese to my freinds. I feel so powerless. Everyday, i will always have my mind thinking, why am i born like this. I shud be proud of myself. but i still have this feeling that i will feel so lonely when no ones talk to me.
I want someone to laugh with me. talk to me. share their story with me. Share their joy with me. and most importantly I want to show my good reputation to everyone. To show a good image but sadly right now i am just that kind of person that r so blurr and dont have any good talent at doing things.
So at the moment, I will always have this fear when talking to others people. I scare they will not enjoy talking to me.
Maybe is all because i'm not good enough to be a better person. Everytime i open my mouth I speak rubbish. Being too sacarstic nor too kind also will hurt others feeling. i really dont know how am i suppose to get everyone attention. I feel so minor in a way. feel so ignored...and lonely at the same time. :(
So that is why i have to change. i know that i have to change. I can't stay like this forever.
have to be more brave and responsible when facing problem.
Sometimes i just kinda hate myself for being so stupid and stuff. Keep saying the wrong word at the wrong time. Why do i end up like this. Life is hard when you step into adulthood, now only did I realize. Well, thats me man..sometimes i kinda jealous of you all that are enjoying your wonderful life everyday. smiling to people..laughing at jokes.. well to me is hard, i can hardly get any friends through communicate with them, perhaps i lack of humour in me.
I can't make them laugh...My jokes sucks. because of my language speaking i guess. realy regretting not taking chinese.. :( as i mostly speak chinese to my freinds. I feel so powerless. Everyday, i will always have my mind thinking, why am i born like this. I shud be proud of myself. but i still have this feeling that i will feel so lonely when no ones talk to me.
I want someone to laugh with me. talk to me. share their story with me. Share their joy with me. and most importantly I want to show my good reputation to everyone. To show a good image but sadly right now i am just that kind of person that r so blurr and dont have any good talent at doing things.
So at the moment, I will always have this fear when talking to others people. I scare they will not enjoy talking to me.
Maybe is all because i'm not good enough to be a better person. Everytime i open my mouth I speak rubbish. Being too sacarstic nor too kind also will hurt others feeling. i really dont know how am i suppose to get everyone attention. I feel so minor in a way. feel so ignored...and lonely at the same time. :(
So that is why i have to change. i know that i have to change. I can't stay like this forever.
have to be more brave and responsible when facing problem.
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Freedom?
SPM is finally over and I still feel about the same, don't have the hype up feel or excitement that was expected to have it after exam. Maybe partly is because I still miss my school and my friends. We gonna part ways after we graduate. We are slowly stepping forward to a new stage in life.
We are now mature and has become an adult. Have to be more rasional and take care of things yourself, can't depends on parents anymore. Gonna miss those old times. With a blink of an eye, TIME do fly with an extreme speed. Scary.+_+
On the bright side, I actually kinda glad that SPM is over, because before that, is really giving me a hell of stress and headache studying. Besides, i can get to have time to play and go out more often, but i still don't really enjoy much.
Few days ago, my dad won a Nintendo Wii through a lucky draw. I was kinda surprise that he won such an expensive console, talk about being lucky.wow. o.o. Now hope my mom buy toto can strike 1st prize. hahahaha. I myself not really a wii fan but i already kinda addicted to it. =.=!!
School prom night is getting close day by day, and I had already spent all my money on cloths and stuff day by day. Pukima!! =>= pok jor lar now. My budget become negative d. Diao lar. Actually damn true with the "money is everything" quote from Edwin. No money really can't be at ease and instead will live a hard life. Gonna get a job and earn money from working. man..damn lazy to work. because i never work before. I had also went to various places with a bunch of friends to shopping centre, mainly is to buy cloths dress for the upcoming prom. Went to 1u on the 1st day of shopping spree after SPM, and end up buy a vest. Just lepak here and there. Watched Princess and the frog. Nice movie, long time no watch disney classic cartoon ler so that's why I kinda really looking forward to watch.haha but although it was nice i slept in the cinema half-way through the movie. Not because of the movie but the cramp place that the TGV provided that make me feel so uncomfortable plus not able to focus on the movie and end up falling asleep.zz =_=
And that was also the day I finally ask beng to be my prom partner. Finally can build up the courage to ask her la. coz i really the shy-type wan mar. hahaha. I will try my best and change for the better.I promised. I really hope we will did great during prom. =]
Then the day after, went to sungai wang and Time Square. Shop till you drop dead man. =_= I really beh tahan the long hours non-stop walk. Plus i never get to go to Sungai wang cos i came late. and the early comers already went. hais. Oh well, i saw most of my friends bought alot of things, and I myself also finally buy shoes for prom. Like the shoes plus is cheap with a price of RM55 =) quite satisfied now. hahaha.
And i have a word to pheng and beng. please don't walk so fast, I really hard to catch up to you all.
beh tahan d lo. always walk so fast without telling others. suddenly disappear then suddenly appear again out of nowhere. waaa...the reason why my leg so cramp la..LOL. ~.~
We are now mature and has become an adult. Have to be more rasional and take care of things yourself, can't depends on parents anymore. Gonna miss those old times. With a blink of an eye, TIME do fly with an extreme speed. Scary.+_+
On the bright side, I actually kinda glad that SPM is over, because before that, is really giving me a hell of stress and headache studying. Besides, i can get to have time to play and go out more often, but i still don't really enjoy much.
Few days ago, my dad won a Nintendo Wii through a lucky draw. I was kinda surprise that he won such an expensive console, talk about being lucky.wow. o.o. Now hope my mom buy toto can strike 1st prize. hahahaha. I myself not really a wii fan but i already kinda addicted to it. =.=!!
School prom night is getting close day by day, and I had already spent all my money on cloths and stuff day by day. Pukima!! =>= pok jor lar now. My budget become negative d. Diao lar. Actually damn true with the "money is everything" quote from Edwin. No money really can't be at ease and instead will live a hard life. Gonna get a job and earn money from working. man..damn lazy to work. because i never work before. I had also went to various places with a bunch of friends to shopping centre, mainly is to buy cloths dress for the upcoming prom. Went to 1u on the 1st day of shopping spree after SPM, and end up buy a vest. Just lepak here and there. Watched Princess and the frog. Nice movie, long time no watch disney classic cartoon ler so that's why I kinda really looking forward to watch.haha but although it was nice i slept in the cinema half-way through the movie. Not because of the movie but the cramp place that the TGV provided that make me feel so uncomfortable plus not able to focus on the movie and end up falling asleep.zz =_=
And that was also the day I finally ask beng to be my prom partner. Finally can build up the courage to ask her la. coz i really the shy-type wan mar. hahaha. I will try my best and change for the better.I promised. I really hope we will did great during prom. =]
Then the day after, went to sungai wang and Time Square. Shop till you drop dead man. =_= I really beh tahan the long hours non-stop walk. Plus i never get to go to Sungai wang cos i came late. and the early comers already went. hais. Oh well, i saw most of my friends bought alot of things, and I myself also finally buy shoes for prom. Like the shoes plus is cheap with a price of RM55 =) quite satisfied now. hahaha.
And i have a word to pheng and beng. please don't walk so fast, I really hard to catch up to you all.
beh tahan d lo. always walk so fast without telling others. suddenly disappear then suddenly appear again out of nowhere. waaa...the reason why my leg so cramp la..LOL. ~.~
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